just only i realise...how not important i m.....to u

两个人不等于我们

醒来只有我一个人 分不清黄昏或清晨 空气微冷有甚么在流失慢慢降温 一颗心往下沉 毕竟只是太短的梦 彼此终于退回陌生 我加上你两个人并不等于我们 你想我吗 会偶尔想我吗 是这样吗 飞扬的会落下 你爱我吗 如果诚实回答 可是爱也不是解答 空屋子里没有回声 但我记忆有你指纹 我加上你两个人却并不等于我们 你想我吗 会偶尔想我吗 是这样吗 飞扬的会落下 你爱我吗 如果诚实回答 可是爱也让人疲乏 你知道吗 我心快要溶化 是这样吗 压抑的会爆发 你爱我吗 爱我就懂我吗 告诉我善意的谎话 告诉我善意的谎话 好让我相信我不是太傻

i dunno wats in ur mind....i wish i know..and i m becoming a damn stalker who stalks u almost every minutes!damn it!!i know u hurt ur knee wat can i say...just be more careful....tats nothing else tat i can do...FML...

I m confused...i need someone....who i can really tell out all the feelings and secret....i just have not idea wat is in my mind....i wanna know wat u r thinking...i wish i know...wat m i suppose to do...i cant feel anything from you i cant tell out i just dont know wat to do anymore...

omg omg omg....10 days left....and i m feeling the pressure now....!!!!!!!!!!

just started my dental anatomy today then onli i know i have loadsssssss to study!!!!

and guess wat..my younger brother..is taking car driving lesson...wtf wtf wtf...seriously i dunno wats wrong wif my mum...she NVR let me learn to drive!!!!

=( no mood to study le...............................argh!!!!!!!!wanna go home.....


niteeeeeeeeeeez......

ANATOMY paper tomolo =( and i was watching FIFA game nicely just now ...i m so screwed.....

good nitez!!!!!

i just cant sleep without doin this.....

good nitezzzzzz!!!!!!!!and a save trip................

MANDAVI PEARL CITY

woot =) tats the apartment which I m moving in next month!!!wat can i say.....mandavi is such a beautiful apartment...together with my housemate WILKIN SAN....we have alot of plans for the next 12 months!!we gonna hire a cook!!yes a cook!!of course the cook must know how to cook malaysian's style dishes la =P

oh yeah...we are checking out the furnitures later,omg tat sounds so gay but i just cant wait to move in!!!

yesterday whole night i cant sleep,i started to feel guilty for what i have done....for so long i have been spending alot of my parents money,i mean...ALOT...REALLY ALOT...since i got here....i always believe that since they wanted me to study here....they have to get me whatever i want and i don feel guilty at all,but now........i m planning to move out and stay in a really nice apartment and of course the rent is quite expensive,i bought a bike,i bought extra set of my prostho instruments,for what i have no idea...and of course other stuffs...kinda regret now =( i m sorry....

WTF!!!had my 1st fall today =(

luckily not really big deal but the BLOODY GUARDS!!!!

this stupid incident happened just right infront of the library!!!!!!everybody saw it =( damn malu la.....haiz....

now lesson learned...nvr stick so close to the vehicle infront....i could have be dead by now if tat was a truck...

anyway...i think most probably i m changing my wifey after the holiday =D

yamaha R15!!!!in ferarri red....I M COMING!!!!




OMG...so sexy rite???????=P



but there is a new model....FZ...


looks cool also rite???!!!!OMG OMG.....which 1 to choose!!!!!!

how would u feel?

what is in ur mind actually.......

it is easy to tell that nothing to worry about everything will be fine.....but deep inside...m struggling and worrying.....FML!!!!

2 more papers to go...finally!!cant wait til exam over and shop in Mangalore...

feel kinda annoyed by some ppl lately,fuck u if u don like me,I still can live a great life without you so get lost,i wont mind if u asking others to ditch me or what....oh yeah...forgot to remind you to think b4 u speak,don try to exaggerate things too much...and oh yeah...ur jokes are lame...and don try to act cool with me infront of me and backstab me after i turned around...

I HA E TO KEEP THIS LAPTOP IN THE DRAWER FOR THE NEXT 2 WEEKS....=.=


and really really have to start studying........!!!!!!!!

come on CCL!!!U DON WANNA SCREW UP UR BLOCK 3 RITE???!!!!

Fuck it...hate molars to the max..=.= took me whole nite to study just mandibular 1st molar....ARGH!!!!!!

KELLY CLARKSON!!!!yup..i love her songs since.....because of you!!!her songs are meaningful and awesome!!!=D


once again.....after so long...my guitar is out of the cupboard....=)



ALREADY GONE-KELLY CLARKSON

SERIOUSLY HAS TO STOP ALL THESE NONSENSE AND START STUDYING

omg!!!!IT FEELS SO SO SO GOOD WHEN U HATE SOMEONE AND TELL HIM TO 'FUCK OFF' JUST RIGHT INFRONT OF HIM...ahahahaha...his shocked face....damn epic la!!!!don let me find out which room u r staying if not i gonna flood ur room =p and i love destroying ppl stuffs too!!!!hehehe....

MY BIKE IS SO SO SO SEXY =P

O.M.G!!!i m so irritated by some ppl in my class..LOL...actually no la..just 1 and i think she just joking but damn damn mean!!!=.= really abit not happy when i heard that.....wth!!!!!!!!!!and guess wat...block exma is just next week and i have nstart any of my revision yet..!!!!!argh.!!!project studies...everything!!!!!but the good thing is i just cleaned up my room =) so clean now..ahaha~~~

OMG OMG...i so wanna get a bike =P i mean BIKE..not scooter anymore...ahaha...after the ride today...so cool la!!!scooter is just tooo.....girly...honda cbz here i come!!!=)

never gonna forget the snile on ur face =) tats just so beautiful.....time for class..argh!!!!!!

Finally!!!!UTSAV is over!!!and guess wat.....exam is coming up next and i haven start any revision yet!!!!so dead!!!!alot to catch up...but 1st of all!!tomolo is Dinesh's birthday!!alot stuffs to prepare today =) and yeah...fuck my neighbour...stop singing so loud u bloody asshole!!!

SOME PPL ARE MAD LA!!!and i guess i m 1 of them..=.=

out of sudden..i feel like crying....i m just too tired....i just didnt get enuff of rest and don have time for everything!!!why cant i just do things right!!haiz....life sux!!!!!

omg....my legs..are so so so pain.....but seriously....i m loving dancing so much!!!=P everyday i just waiting for the classes to end and go for dance practice.....western dance...modern dance...chair dance....finally done wif wedding dress this song and doin chair dance tomolo...omg..i seriously dunno that i can dance >.< ahaha...

what if i miss her....okbye goodnite

OKAY...dancing isnt that easy......-.-
i m having severe muscles ache.....
but still..it was fun!!!omg and this is my 1st dance performance the song is wedding dress from big bang,i dun know who are they at the beginning but after listening to the song and watch how they dance....i have to admit that they are GOOD!!and yup....i m doing the dance in the music video...-.-
whole saturday gone becoz of this dance and i m having basketball training tomolo morning at 6 and another dancing practice session at 2...-.- massive right?????

Sometimes things just get into shit!!!well,i dunno why but there is this guy,who was 1 of my best friends here..even last holiday in malaysia we still cool but til we got back here....he started to 'act cool' or wat...he got his new dslr..yup..i haven ggot mine yet..-.- and he just got his new bike,a pulsar 200,which is damn cool!!yup,mayb he just thinks that he is too cool for us.....he even ignored us in the discussion yesterday and another friend and i went back early coz we felt left out....damn sad la...and quite often i go foodcourt to eat by myself lately..-.- how pathetic is that!!(coz my classmates are dota-ing so madly in their room)-.- i hope all these r just wat i think but is not the truth.....

y m i so irritating!!!yes.....just making me to hate myself more.......the way i think....is just so.....bad....

haiz.....currently in damn bad moooood....really wish to have someone to talk to =( i m a human being also and i need someone to listen to me..i don care if u start calling me a whining bitch or wat...anyone pls.....anyone.........................

oh yeah oh yeah!!!!!!MY MUM FINALY PROMISED TO GET ME MY DSLR NEXT HOLIDAY~~~!!!!!!!!!WOOHOO.....after so long of arguement she finally agree with me for the 1st time!!!!DSLR is awesome~!!!!

FINALLY!!!!!the training started this morning.....-.- i guess 3 weeks of fun life is over and my long rusted body(not only mine b ut everybody) really needs some time to get used to it again...okie...gonna take a shower and have a long nap.....finally my nose is getting better and i slpt quite well last nite =)

shit la!!!my head is getting heavier and heavier......bloody fever!!!!!!!!!!!!!and there is some kind of concert going on outside the hostel and so noisy!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!

Passing thought: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take; but by the moments that take our breath away.....

Life is beautiful, Live it !!!

ppppppffffft...but seriously..i hate my life to the max right now.....i m so sick...and i couldnt concentrate in class for the past 2 days...missed out alot and I got no mood to study!!!!!!!

and somehow i m damn emo now =( coz of this place.....and oh yeah...i m just so sick of this guy...he not going to bring his own dictionary to every PBL classes and guess wat...he gonna ask from me like 'GIVE ME THE DICTIONARY' and he gonna takes all the credits by telling out all the unfamiliar terms....haiz.....

FINALLLYYYYYY!!!!GOT MY CONNECTION.....better settle everything before the MBBS ppl come back....damn it!!!!having such a bad flu..really killing me...been sleeping whole day til no one came and woke me up and i slept til 11oclock..-.-

i bet if i died in my room no one gonna notice also.....=(

haiz......THIS PLACE IS SO BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!and the food sux to the max!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 and a half year more......go go jia you!!!

haiz.....so fast 3 weeks gone =( have to go back and study like mad for another 6 months!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARGH!!!!!!!!!another 1 and a half years!!!!!!!then i will be back in malaysia....!!!!this holiday.........is fun.....yup......not bad la..ahaha..gambled like mad...eat like mad drink like mad!!!gained alot of weight!!!!!-.- hate the feeling of being lonely at nite....either watch movie or keep calling ppl......ahaha...and my grandma left forearm injured til so badly =/ it never gonna recover........bones broken and she even feels difficult lifting up a spoon with her left arm....feel so sad seeing this......mayb god bless her pls.......

WTF WTF WTF.............................this morning i received a call from IMU...telling me that they are offering me a place in their dentistry programme..............

WHY CANT U OFFER ME LIKE 6 MONTHS AGO???!!!!!!!!

mother.....-.- i have no choice but to reject and they started asking all kind of questions like where I m in now and how is it all that...haiz.......................................................................

IMU IMU,nvm.....Manipal not that bad afterall and quite a number of ppl in IMU told me IMU sux..-.-"complained about their lecturers their classes........bla bla bla...

whatever i still have to fly back to india next week....wtf wtf wtf.........

SERIOUSLY....THE WEATHER HERE IS KILLING ME........................................
MAKES ME FEEL SLEEPY AND LAZY.....-.-
and oh yeah..totally forgotten about the fluorosis project thingy......damn it...and i dunno where to begin!!!!so IRRITATING........

awesome!!!had a great day wif wilkin,eric and his friends!!!!and dinner wif the dickson andrew and others.......enjoyed the badminton session yesterday and looking forward to the basketball games tomolo =)

seems like this whole holiday is so different...lol...she could be wif some1 else and nothing i can do har....chill la bro!!!!!!!

oh yeah.......koay and vikra leaved to australia d!!!damn it...........so 1 to have lunch with d......and tang is leaving soon....and few months later every1 will be leaving malaysia to different countries,and we would be able to meet again......so this is life har.....nothing last forever but onli memories har.......cruel fact bout life...so better appreciate what YOU are having now!!!!!seriously...trust me i know how harsh it is to lose something important.........=) have a nice day ppl!!!

Finally!!!!going back lu...gonna take a good rest this holiday =)

and surprisingly,she replied!!=.=
miss her so much but just nothing i can do...

I M GOING HOME~~~~!!!

YES!!!DONE WITH PHYSIO!!!finallllllllllly.....biochem left...the study marathon is reaching the finishing line,woohoo~

and having severe muscles atrophy...damn it!!all wasted...need to build from the beginning again...

last paper and practical!!workhard for it!!gogo jia you!!!

the truth is always ugly...

PHYSIO AND BIOCHEM LEFT....omg omg....hope to get all distinction this time..>)
Dental anat and Anat are surely gonna score well d....but physio and biochem....-.- really really abit difficult coz nvr really study much thru out the whole block....damn it!!

Finally!!!going back to malaysia in few days' time!!!but somehow i just dont feel like going back.......there is some realities that i dont really wanna face....i have always been escaping...haiz............but don care so much 1st...another 2 papers and 1 prac and I M DONE with block 2!!!!

CHARAKA FOR BREAKFAST!!!THEN HAVE TO CAMP IN LIBRARY WHOLE DAY!!!GOGOGO JIA YOU!!!

WTH!!!!!stupid spotters!!!!-.-
only gave us 1 minute for each stations....and wanted us to list out all the branches or asked us to write out the development of it....
damn!!!I didnt get the chance to complete a few questions =( but nvm...still did it quite well but could have done much better!!!!ARGH!!!

and God bless Bryan...hope his ankle recover soon coz we need him for the basketball games!!!And we are having physiology practical on Monday.

and please please grandma.....don you ever get injured again....=[

herm...anatomy and histology spotter exam tomorrow.....but I m not nervous at all =)
damn,loving these kind of feeling,now I understand the advantage of studying everyday instead of last minute study...LOL...

and I kept thinking bout the next chinese orientation....wat kind of performance we are going to present...alrite..enuff of dreaming,time to study again...ah wooo!!!

omg.....i think my dirty bed shirt is the main reason i m having eye infection..-.- damn it..long time nvr wash it...and anatomy viva tomorrow....but dunno y....just no mood to study at all....damn...just feel like very sleepy all day long...even slept in dental material class today...wth..-.- and even missed my prostho class just to go to hospital for my stupid eye...and damn it,running out of cash d!!!T.T

Thank you ppl for being such good friends!!!thanks for all ur concern...I m alright now...mayb everyone just cannot stand a ccl that is so quiet..lol..

wtf....wat happened to our class?!!carmen crying in the corner dunno wt happened...jane crying coz of the dog thingy,both eunice and li thing quarreling and out of sudden Dinesh is involved in it...wat the hell....come on ppl,we have to be in the same class for another 4 and a half years....haizzz....and planning to study biochem and physio like mad today in the library...not coming out until they kick me out...@.@

god damn it,have to start camping in library until exam is over....=(

happy 2010!!

yeah...2010 is here...but it wasnt really 'happy'..out of sudden I m so so so tired so everything...

block exam is coming again...oh god,have damn damn damn alot to catch up especially physio and biochem...have been slacking around alot lately...i just...miss home so much suddenly...

my stupid hostel,damn annoying.fungus all around my room,termites building numbers of nests in here!!!damn creepy....stupid guitar out of tone...lost jovian's phone...and I m in low cash right now!!!no money ar!!!

Luckily today's PBL not tat bad..everyone did quite well in my group...and I just hate being a leader..it sux!!!-.-

Seems like i have been here for almost 3 months,and within these 3 months,alot alot of things happened in our little class...and everyone just dunno what to do when daniel scolded jeremy like mad in class today...damn it!!!just say sorry la jeremy,y you wanna defend urself since it was ur fault........haiz...anyway,daniel is still tat scary....XD